In a spot

I’m not sure as to how many of you would be able to relate to the situation wherein you longed for something so badly, yearned for all those things you could possibly have had only if were chosen to be there, dreamed about it, had imaginary conversations in your head and awaited the call every single day.

But, the long wait just never seemed to end. Running out of patience, you start investing time in other things, hoping to get over the grief of not having got what you wished for. Am I not worth it? Why not me? Why couldn’t I make it? Consoling oneself that maybe there are better things waiting, moving on would be the best option instead of dwelling in the past. And you try. Each day. Things start getting better or at-least you coax yourself into believing so.

One mundane Sunday morning things change. Your phone has buzzed. 3 notifications. You rub your eyes to get a better view of the text. It says “Congrats !! Your In!!”. Discombobulated. You read it twice, n number of times. It’s still the same. Calls, text messages, virtual meetings, an exchange of congratulatory text messages. What a day it was! But all then you start thinking, “How did I make into it!?”

But there was more in room for you. You ask for one, but you get two! Your ecstatic workaholic self signs in for both. Proud. Happy. Little did one know, that one decision of yours will set things downhill. Three consecutive days of calls, messages, confirmation, denial, chaos and regret. Regret that what you yearned for is yours, but now you doubt if this is what you wanted. You were misinformed, you didn’t research well or maybe you expected too much form it. You realize its not always about the joy in it. There is a downside to all things, and you will have to stake things for it. The flip side of getting what you want.

To quit was not an option. Learn. Adapt. Act. Move On and don’t turn back.